Friday, April 04, 2008

moment of weakness

It's not that I have neglected my blog this week, it's just that I am having a "feel sorry for April" hiatus, which is unattractive and something I try not to air publicly. But some itches must be scratched, even if other people are watching. So if you just aren't in the mood for whining, click over to She is in love and always very cheery.


I'm thirty-four. 34!!!!! And I only have one kid. I know there are infertile people out there with no children who will read this and roll their eyes. That was me for 9 years of my life, so now it is my turn to have one and want more.

Thomas wants a sibling so bad he makes his friends (boys) play like they are his sister. It's pathetic.

This week I am so frustrated with the Chinese government adoption agency that I could just scream. The rate of child abandonment isn't down, yet they are working at a snail's pace. At this rate, we won't have Mei Mei until 2012! AHHHHHHHH.

Here they are. All lined up and ready for someone to snatch them up. I'll take the one with the chubby cheeks in the yellow Hello Kitty blanket please.

Missing Piece Necklace

Okay, now I'm done whining.


Jennifer said...

Oh, April! You know I have an idea how you feel. Time seems to be moving backwards on the Chinese adoption clock.

I have friends who have gone through infertility treatments for their first child(ren), some who can't get pregnant with their second child after having no trouble conceiving the first, and some friends who get pregnant just thinking about it. Some are in their 20's, some in their 30's, and some in their 40's (that would be me - gah!)

It seems to me that the longing for a child does not fade, no matter where one is in life. There is no need for you to apologize for your feelings. You are brave to put it out there.

About every three months, I go through a phase like the one you're in now. It's a crummy way to feel.

Thinking of you...


Never feel bad for whining ... As a woman it is important to show all our emotions ... I have 2 bio/ and 2 adopted daughters from China ... The slow down makes me so sad because some children are aging out of what people call adoptable age ... I just have to believe it will pick up soon ... I am sorry for the ache in your heart ...

Jill said...

April - You have no need to apologize for complaining. Adoption can be the most frustrating thing in the world. I'm about at my breaking point, as well. I've told Greg a thousand times that "I'm done!" So, I'm glad that we'll be together in a week and we can lament together.

Hang in there and know that I'm thinking about you.