Friday, February 25, 2011
I'm not sure why my sub-conscience thinks God is a llama. In my dreams, God is always a llama. And he wears a monocle. Go figure.
Two years ago I had this dream.
Last night I dreamed I was riding an old carnival ride with God the llama. It was one of those that have individual cars that go in circles and you feel like you are riding a huge protractor. Our car was glitter lavender with mint pin stripes and red leather seats. Many of the light bulbs on the ride were broken or missing and it made me worry that the ride was old and unsafe.
When the ride began so did the music. It was "Bleeding Love" by Leona Lewis.
God the llama was sitting with his legs crossed on the outside seat and seemed hardly phased at all by the centrifugal force that was pulling me into him. My hair whipped around wildly and I kept trying to hold it out of my eyes with one hand and hang on to the car with the other.
He was talking but I couldn't make out his words and I kept saying, "What? I can't hear." And the music was so loud. And the ride was old. And I felt a little desperate.
And then it was if time slowed down and everything was in slow motion and I heard him say clear as day, "I hope you are doing your best my dear. What a waste it would be if you weren't. A shame."
And then he said, "And don't forget to bring more toilet paper upstairs."
That was it. The whole dream. Oh, I forgot to tell you I was wearing overalls and Converse sneakers. And now I'm kind of hoping that overalls make a come back because they were really comfortable. I can skip the Converse. They make my feet sweat.
God the llama isn't white like the above photo. He's brown with white spots. And very fluffy.
So now I'm thinking that I'm not really doing my best. At anything.
But does anyone ever feel like they are doing their best? Strike that. Does any mother ever feel like she is doing her very best at everything?
But I'm going to go ahead and try harder. Because, you know, God said to and all.
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