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Sometimes I like people more than they like me. I'm pretty sure it has to do with the paint ball splat to the face approach I have when I first meet people.
I'm working on that by the way. The mystic space between Ice Queen and long lost friend alludes me.
And I gotta tell ya, it really doesn't feel very good to like someone more than they like you. It hurts my spirit and it makes me want to stay in the safe cushy place called home where my children and husband love me like crazy cakes.
But a girl like me needs to stretch her wings every so often and fly away from the nest with other like minded girls for a nice lunch or something of that nature.
These other girls, well, they don't exactly come knocking on my door and I must seek them out.
So when I splat them in the face and scare them away it hurts my spirit. My mother likes to remind me that as a child I couldn't care less of what others thought. I'd shrug my shoulders, say "their loss" and run off to the next exciting thing.
I'm thinking she has to still be in me somewhere, this little girl. I'm looking for her. I'm digging up old photos and laughing at her antics. I'm hoping she will teach me how to love myself enough to say, "their loss."
"To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing." - source unknown
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